match

So I took that Myers-Briggs test and I'm INFP. So shocked. not really.

I also googled if Doug (ENTJ) and I were a good match too. Check it out.

Finally, now I know. Googled confirmed it.

things i know for sure january

I am loved beyond belief and without measure. its crazy to think about it.

bucket list

BUCKET LIST or maybe a list that will keep expanding of things that I want my life to be about

go to the Sundance Film Festival

have $12,000 bucks in my bank account

take my family to Europe

travel to Africa

take pictures on a different continent for work

go to Australia

go to Greece

watch my little girl grow up

be on TV for something good

make a big difference in the universe

live on a different continent for a few months

mentor someone

teach someone what i know

host family dinners once a month with friends

be open to new things

Get Involved in something bigger than me

Trust myself more and trust the things I know

Be a better wife

dream a bigger dream for my life and family

have a gallery show of my art

learn to pray

create a life where i never have to apologize for being me

sing at my old college chapel

take krav maga

go on a real vacation

learn to just be

make a film

smile more

learn a new language

play more badminton

learn to play the guitar

write a song

visit san francisco

go to the louvre

send a message in a bottle

write a letter to "the editor"

grow and eat my own vegetables

see the northern lights

fire a gun

have my picture in the newspaper

ride a mechanical bull

walk on the great wall of china

watch the sunset in key west

get a tattoo

be on a gameshow

have a family portrait painted

help someone in need

take my whole family (extended) on a fully paid for vacation

snow........AGAIN

it's snowing again and we are shut in. mainly because the blu has been sick and also because it's freaking snowing again and i don't have heat in my car-just butt warmers.

i will admit this. i love how beautiful it is outside. our neighborhood is just a few blocks away from the forgotten and less talked about parts of kansas city. most days you can hear gun shots , people cussing at their kids, loud music and big dogs vying for attention. sometimes it seems folks here have given up hope. they toss garbage out of car windows and walk around aimlessly.

when it snows,it's quiet outside,everything is clean. it's like a new beginning. folks are kind to each other, running to help someone who's car is stuck or has fallen in the snow.

it's all new.

so i guess i don't hate something that brings the humanity out in us.

i would love to figure out how to bring hope back to our neighborhood/community. any suggestions?

so i think i may write again

so i've abandoned this blog for several years now. i've also stopped writing except for little quips on my business blog or facebook. Nothing substantial.

I'm on staff at a church where I am a video editor/producer and I produce a live production every week I am being given a sabbatical. I didn't do anything wrong, there is no weird issue. Folks who have worked there for seven years get TWO months off paid full benefits. It is such an unheard of things ,but I am so excited and I feel truly blessed.

As of now, I have no real plans. I am going to shoot some weddings and spend time working on my business. I'm going to try and write more about my life. I have the tendency to be so private -which is a good thing sometimes. I want to write what is in my heart and in my life.

So i'm gonna take a stab at it. be patient with me.

who knows what will happen

The Perfect Church

The Perfect Church
Originally uploaded by jstancel

brothers on a hotel bed

We are making our music video to this but I just love this one too!

being good where you are

view this

they say he's just a friend...oh biz

creepy

art life's little reminder

I stole this from flowerdust.net....

“Life beats down and crushes the soul and art reminds you that you have one.” - Quote by Stella Adler


ps buy anne jackson's book

Watch the Inaugaration live from Hulu

the inauguration view it on hulu.com

bless

“if in life we were sincerely more concerned to bless more instead of impress more, Jesus would enjoy it.”
as seen on http://www.flowerdust.net/

the renewed mind

Say what you will-but these days the "church" is getting jiggy with it.. sense the sarcasm


The Renewed Mind is the Key from Lehrthing on Vimeo.

lest we forget

I saw this on Ragamuffin Soul.com--It is becoming one of my favorite blogs.

There is a gaping hole in the middle of all of our Sunday services.

We try to fill it with cool videos.
We try and fill it with social justice.
We try and fill it with tree hugging Christianity.
We try and fill it with God is love.
We try and fill it with unreal production.
We try and fill it with life application.
We try and fill it with smiles and winks.
We try and fill it with hands raised and hearts seated.
We try and fill it with Martin guitars and Orange amps.
We try and fill it with “Go after the heart of God”’s and “Lift up your voice”’s
We try and fill it with singing loudly and harmonizing beautifully.
We try and fill it with internet campuses and Sunday tweets.

But at the end of the day, the hole is still there.
At the end of the day, the hole is still gaping.
Because although all that stuff is good,
None of it is the Gospel.

We must never forget that the only thing capable of filling it…
Is Jesus Christ.

Lest we forget.

What would Jesus Buy???

second life death

now we have hit an all new low..

An unnamed Japanese woman reacted in anger after her virtual husband divorced her in the interactive game “Maple Story”. She reacted by killing him -not the player, but his online avatar! The player whose online persona was murdered complained to police, who arrested the woman on suspicion of hacking. She used information she got from the other player in order to destroy his avatar. If convicted, she could face up to five years in prison. -link

arcade fire....album :neon bible

cheesburger jerry

‘Big C’ makes for more patient Plaza panhandler'

Kansas City’s most prolific panhandler is coming to terms with his own mortality …

Jerry Mazer — a Plaza pariah to some, an institution to others — has cancer.

“The doctor says I’ve got two years to 20 to live, so I figure I’ve got 10 years,” Mazer says. “That’s a helluva estimate, isn’t it?”

Mazer procured a note from his doc to evidence his condition.

“To whom it may concern,” the note begins on what appears to be a Truman Medical Center prescription form that lists his name, payment terms and date of birth (06-09-50). “Gerald Mazer, patient under my care, cannot work. He was recently diagnosed with leukemia.”

Still Mazer must make a living, so he maintains his vigil.

“I’m doing fine,” he says. “It’s almost been a year since I was diagnosed, but I’m doing fine. I’m trying to stay out of trouble — the cops pretty much have been leaving me alone ....”

The end game for Mazer?

“For me? D-E-A-T-H. That’s between seven and 10 years now if I’m lucky. You never know because it’s up to God.”

Has his philosophy on life changed?

“I’m trying to be nicer and crack jokes,” Mazer says. “I don’t even think about the death sentence. But it’s changed my philosophy about how I want to be right with God and right with people, where I’m not a bad guy, so maybe I can go to heaven.

“Like yesterday I asked somebody for a down payment on a cheeseburger, and I got no results. So then I asked somebody for a down payment on a hippie-burger, and he called the cops and said I called him a hippie mother-(something). It didn’t sit too well with the cops, but they let me get out of here.”

Mazer’s lawyer extricated him in May from a jam, “for cussing out a Plaza security guard,” Mazer says. “But that was from October of last year, and I haven’t been arrested since.”

It’s like this: Some people resent being asked for money and will say some nasty stuff. In Mazer’s “Screaming Jerry” days in Westport back in the 1980s and early ’90s, he more than returned verbal fire.

Recently he’s been more restrained but still feisty. But the “Big C” has further calmed the once-petulant panhandler.

“It’s better to be humble than to go to jail, because if somebody calls the cops, no matter what happened, I’m the one who gets in trouble,” Mazer says. “Make sure you put my diagnosis in the paper, that way maybe people won’t be so mean to me.”

Done deal.

kansas city star - hearne christopher jr.

wally world

Wal-Mart Denies Pressuring Workers to Vote Against Democrats

By Michelle Sherwood

Story Created: Aug 3, 2008

Story Updated: Aug 3, 2008

Wal-Mart is denying a report that it pressured employees to vote against democrats in November because of worries—that a bill the party supports—would make it easier for workers to unionize. The measure would allow labor organizations to unionize workplaces without secret ballot elections—Obama co-sponsored it; Mccain opposed it.

A Wall Street Journal report says the Bentonville-based company held mandatory meetings with store managers to warn them about the bill. A Wal-Mart spokesman said the company did discuss the bill with employees and sees it as a negative but was not advocating that workers vote against backers of the bill.